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[30 Sep 2007|11:30am]
[ mood | sad ]

I feel really unhappy and lost at the moment like Im losing sight of me under everything. I feel like Im supporting everyones problem but have no one who understands me or who wants to help me. I feel so angry and depressed all the time.

I thought I needed to get away so I went on holiday and left the country and yet all I long for is England now. I need to get away from Surrey and Dorking but where would I go.

I must be the only person in the world who goes away and spends most of the time crying.

Can no one help me? Does anyone even want to help me or am I alone as I thought.

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[27 Jun 2007|08:52pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Did anyone hear about Chris Benoit from WWE killing his wife and child and then himself a day later. He apparently thought about it. It worries me things like this. So tragic his son was only 7 years old... so much life ahead of him and taken by someone he loved and probably looked up to.


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[21 Jun 2007|06:39pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Its my birthday on sunday......... my celebration on saturday.....

why aren't I excited?

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[05 Jun 2007|06:52pm]
[ mood | irate ]

I'm so pissed off at the moment it isn't even funny,.

i just want to scream at the top of my lungs or just get up, pack a small bag and not bother coming back.

Not that anyone cares or anything

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Holy crap Batman [12 May 2007|09:40am]
[ mood | morose ]

I really screwed up yesterday as in big time screw up and now I think some of my best mates are out to murder me in an unpleasant fashion worthy of a bad horror movie.

I don't blame them for being mad at me but considering the grovelling text message I sent them you'd think that they could at least throw an olive branch my way.

I blame the drink!!!!! It put me in too laid back a mood, since its Jen's birthday tomorrow we are going drinking tonight. I think its time to stick to coke... and coke without any mixers in!!!!

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hmmmmm I have been slack! [07 May 2007|01:41pm]
[ mood | happy ]

It's really strange, I've read through my livejournal and noticed just how dedicated I used to be to it, I was always writing in it and I had amazing friends who commented and now its all just slipped off and I'm not too happy about it.

I've made a pact to myself to at least write in my LJ once a week and to reply to all comments and to read everyone's entries. I used to be very good at it and I know I can be again!

My life here is nice and settled and I'm enjoying it. Admittedly Chelsea didn't win the league this year but we did win a cup so at least we have something!

Ayla is coming round later on and I should be meeting up with some friends and going out drinking which will be enjoyable!

So anyway how are you all? Everythng ok? Let me know because I really want to know!

Hannah xxxx

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city slicker indeed [24 Apr 2007|07:25am]
[ mood | busy ]

My work is sending me to Dover today for training which means over two hours journey each way... not too hapy about it but at least I didn't have to pay which is always good!

I'm getting the feeling that training is going to be a part of my life for a while to come yet! Dover today, Croydon Thursday and Friday. God only knows what I'll be doing next week

Got 20 minues before the journey begins.... suppose I better eat something... maybe a ginger snap... yummy in my tummy, that and a  cup of tea!

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[22 Apr 2007|09:51pm]
[ mood | blah ]

work tomorrow!

Not looking forward to going to the tomb


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meh where's the tea [21 Apr 2007|07:07pm]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]

Life here at Johnson towers is fine and dandy.

Started a new job last monday at the home office, its not bad. Extremely boring but I can live with that, after all the money is so much better and I should get a pay rise soon so figers cross I can stick it out. It's more the atmosphere which is getting to me. It's so quiet there that you can hear a pin drop and when you've come from a place where there is constant chatter its kind of freaky.

My Parents are away in Vegas enjoying a 2 and a half week holdiay with no children, according to my mum they are seeing Celine Dion tonight *shakes head* Parents. I mean looks what happens when you aren't there to supervise them!

I think the worse thing about my job is just how much I'm missing everyone at my old job, I know I was there for 2 years and its understandable and stuff but I never thought it would be this bad. Its like a constant ache in my chest. Its especially bad without Chris, now that makes me feel like I'm being starved of oxygen. Still I'm heading to Dorking on Thursday to hook up with them so hopefully I'll see him then.

Baby Ayla is fine, so cute and sweet and growing bigger all the time, she has so much hair though that its crazy, then again she was born with it all.

Been watching Supernatural recently. Never seen it before and I didnt even know it was being shown in the UK. I've become completely freaked out about it though like some loser. Horror story and legends were never my strong point, my imagination made sure of that. Has anyone else seen it?

Well that's enough for now as I can't type to save my life

Only 5 days to go!

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[09 Feb 2007|09:23am]
[ mood | enthralled ]

Well its finally happened.

I've become an aunt!!!!!!

My sister in law gave birth to a beautiful little girl yesterday and they've called her Ayla. She is lovely and I am already in love with her and her willing slave!

As soon as I get pictures on the computer I'll show you all!!!!!


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[30 Jan 2007|09:25pm]
[ mood | content ]

Taken from </a></b></a>yeliah_whiskey:

1. My last kiss...earlier on today *blushes*

2. I am listening to...same old stuff by the feeling

3. I talk...in the worlds strangest accent and also all the time

4. I love...lying on the grass and staring at the sky

5. My friends...couldn't be better if I tried

6. My first real kiss...was so long ago that I don't really remember

7. I hate...Friends Provident

8. Love...makes me smile

9. Marriage...is something I can wait for

10. Somewhere, someone is thinking...I wonder what's for lunch?

11. I'll always...love Chelsea

12. I have a secret crush...on someone who I'm not revealing

13. The last time I cried was because...my brother was a prat on Boxing Day

14. My cell phone...is my life

15. When I wake up in the morning...I snuggle down and pretend that it isn't the morning

16. Before I go to bed I...grin because I love sleepng

17. Right now I am thinking about...washing my hair

18. Babies are...something on the cards

19. I get on Myspace...because I get bored

20. Today I...had a burger king

21. Tonight I will...go to bed and smile

22. Tomorrow I will be...celebrating the fact that I'm only in work till 1 tomorrow

23. I really want...to be happy

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is making someone a coffin normal? [02 Jan 2007|08:03pm]
[ mood | amused ]

I went to work for the first time today since the Thursday before Christmas, it was rubbish but that is to be expected. What isn't to be expected is a small coffin I found on my desk... before we all gasp in horror let me explain.

I have many toys on my computer at work, all but two have been gifts that people who I work with have given me. Now my friend who is also called Hannah, has a young 5 year old daughhter called Madison, one day Hannah brought a toy pig in from home by accident. I fell in love with it and Pig ended up on my desk.

Now a certain Chris who you would all know as I've mentioned him rather alot has taken a rather comical dislike to my pig. He has tried to kill the toy many times, once putting it in the printer and this has become a private joke between us which for some reason tickles my funny bone.

On the Thursday in question I happily swanned out at 12 only to discover 2 hours later that I had received a text from Chris informing me that my pig is holding everyone hostage and had been drinking. I found it amusing and replied back, 10 texts later he informs me that pig is dead. I have a good giggle and think nothing more of it.

Chris obviously does because he makes a small coffin from scratch and it must have taken ages. He placed red tissue paper at the bottom of the coffin and finds where I hid pig. He wraps his little trotters together and places him in the coffin and than placed somethig over the top saying RIP Pig and than closes the lid, drawing a big black cross on it and also putting a purple thing on it... and than placed it on my desk.

Now why I find it amusing I'm also slightly baffled, firstly why he went through all this effort and secondly what on earth prompted this little creative spurt.

What do we think people?

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[01 Jan 2007|12:16am]
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!

Have a good one everybody!!!!!
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Now this is what I'm talking about [29 Oct 2006|06:35pm]
[ mood | creative ]

You scored as Remus Lupin. You are a wise and caring wizard and a good, loyal friend to boot. However sometimes in an effort to be liked by others you can let things slide by, which ordinarily you would protest about.


Remus Lupin


Albus Dumbledore


Ron Weasley


Hermione Granger


Harry Potter


Sirius Black


Severus Snape


Ginny Weasley


Draco Malfoy


Lord Voldemort


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[17 Sep 2006|08:00pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

I have two days off from work and I am so glad about that.

I have also discovered that my boyfriend is incredibly sweet, more so than I first thought.

Bad news though, Chris the guy from work who I always talk about, was mugged last week and his phone was taken. I can't believe anyone would do it to him, there are times I want to throttle him but considering our past I'm allowed, no one else should be allowed. He has a new number but I have yet to get it because he was off work all last week and he has been signed off for a further 2 weeks... I think I've entered a stage in my life that might change everything.

Why do I even care so much about him and his well being when I have my boyfriend... well I don't have my boyfriend at the moment the army have him and they've taken him away from me for training with guns and other stuff. He isn't even allowed to tell me where they have taken him.

I've lost both my boys for 2 weeks straight.... what am I going to do???

Anyway how is everyone? Everyone still alive and kicking?

Let me know because I do care and I miss you all!!!!

Hannah x

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pretty..... [12 Sep 2006|07:01pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

What animal is the REAL you?
Created by JENtotheE on Memegen.net

You are most like the Leopard.... a beautiful creature who enjoys the outdoors and cares for other people. You are very brave, and rarely shy about anything.

Take this quiz now - it's easy!
What is your house pet?

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[12 Sep 2006|06:47pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Well I've been away quite a while haven't I?

I never mean to be gone for long but real life gets in the way and than my attention focuses on that instead so sorry people.... don;t take it to heart or think I'''''ve abandoned you because I haven't

I read through all my entries yesterday and I wa quite appalled by how depressed I always seem to be, I seem to complain allthe time about everything, about work, my lovelife, my friends. I was shocked at myself so I'm going to try and be upbeat and try and look at the positive aspects of life.

For example

- Both me and my fanily and friends are in good health, some not in fantastic health but still good
-I have a boyfriend who seems quite keen on me
- I have a great inner circle of friends surroudning me at all time who I can rely on and who I know will make the effort for me
- I have a job which actually pays well
- I have a roof over my head, food in my stomach, clothes, belongings....

When I look at it that way I can't help but feel better about life in general

So anyway my life has been quite busy recently, I've been seeing my friends, working hard at my job and generally enjoying life, I am only 22 after all, I'm in no rush to grow up and I've decided to let life happen, nothing I do will change my fate, every decision and choice I make has already been predetermined so I might as well accept it and enjoy it

I'm doing some quizzes so here's the first one:

What Final Fantasy Character Type Are You? by seymour_guado
User Name
Hair colorGreen
Eye colorGreen

Yay, the only way it could get better would be if it was Squall or Cloud... you got to love the bad guy though, especially in that movie!!!!

Which Final Fantasy Character Will You Marry? (Girls) by AnimeGirlKess
Your Name:
You will marry:Tidus (FFX)
Your wedding dress will cost:$612,300
Your ring will cost:$356,745
Chance of a divorce:

I can live with that as well.... I'm so sad but it's bringing a smile onto my face!!!!!

That's enough I'll update later tonight

Hannah xxxx
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[05 Aug 2006|04:38pm]
[ mood | happy ]

I really think I need a new background, not because I don't love Chelsea anymore because its obvious that I do but just because I feel in the mood for something pretty and feminine. Moony any ideas?

Life here is fine. I told my manager that if she didn't start looking for a job on a admin team than I was going to leave. I've been on the helpdesk talking to people for over a year now and I just can't hack it anymore, I want to train people or work in HR not do this crap job.

Been going out a lot recently and meeting new people which is always fun to do, my life is no longer set in a routine which is nice, I love waking up and not knowing what I'm going to do that day. Still I get to see my old friends as well so its the best of both worlds really.

Today we went for a meal for my mum's birthday which was yesterday and it went fine, I think my brother and Dad manage to keep their arguments to about 3, a new personal record for them both.

Seriously househunting now, going to take a few months because of saving and all but it will so be worth it when I move out.

Nothing much more to say, I'm in a really chilled out mood today so I think once I've added more songs to my IPOD and checked out what everyone else has been up to then I'll watch some DVD, there are so many I have and that my parents have that I haven't watched yet.

What has everyone been up to? Miss you all so much, don't forget to comment so I know.

Love ya

Hannah xxxx

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[21 Jul 2006|09:38pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Wow I'm finally back.

It's only 2 months since I've last updated and I had to do it round my brother's house, my dad is really clamping down on the internet access at my house. You would never think that I turned 22 a month ago!

Nothing much to report, had a great 22nd birthday at the end of June, i'm currently melting in a massive heatwave, England is one of the hottest places in the world at the moment I mean what the hell is that about. We are English damn it we don't deal well with the hot weather, we only know how to deal with grey skies and rain.

Lovelife is a mess as usual. Chris, the one who came to my brothers wedding, is hitting on me and I just can't resist his charm even though he has a girlfriend. I always seem to be attractive to men who are taking who really like me but will never leave their girlfriends for me. Not good!

Work is boring as hell as usual but I got a payrise which makes life worth leaving!

So.... what has everyone been up to then?

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[14 May 2006|09:59pm]
[ mood | content ]

Goodness it's been ages since I've had a chance to update this journal.

Life has been so busy here recently that all I seem to do is sleep and work. Literally I wake up at 6.15 each morning Monday-Friday than I'm on the 7 past 7 train and than I don't get in till about 6 in the evening, its crazy.

Than there is all the drama with my lovelife which is never ending though I really wish it would come to some sort on conclusion, too much drama is very bad for people especially me.

Still waiting for my hospital appointment to come through so hopefully once that happens they'll know what's wrong with once and for all which will make a nice change.

I should be online all day tomorrow because I have the whole day off and I plan to be productive and tackle my washing! I wish I could say I have no clothes to wear but even with my washing basket full my wardrobe is equally as full. Not good as you can imagine... well good and not good.

I've really missed people especially Moony and Paddy and everyone, it seems ages since we last spoke and probably loads has happened since then.

Hopefully everyone will be online some stage tomorrow so I can talk to them and catch up.

Happy belated birthday Moony I hope you had a fantastic day I expect to hear all about it... oh and look at the email I sent you, we've finally got it!

Lots of love

Hannah x

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